Good, not great?

Well, Stagesource is over, thankfully. I can focus on whatever is next, with the knowledge that I did that, and maybe hopefully I'll get a callback or something.

In the meantime I'm left to evaluate "how did I do" and field the question "how did you do?" and I thought it went well, but I didn't think it was the pinnacle of my ability as a performer. I can think of various aspects to the audition that I could have done better, that I have done better other times, with those particular pieces. Therefore, the title of the post. Or am I deluding myself, one way or another? Was it really good, and I just don't realize it? It certainly wasn't bad, I feel I know that. I got a laugh on my slate, that was a weird feeling, and it sort of threw me because then I had to stop and acknowledge the laugh before going into my pieces. I think it's a good thing that I did, I mean it must have showcased my comic timing on some level. OK so what was the laugh? I'd practiced with my coach how to do the slate, her attitude is NOT to do that whole self deprecating, meager "hello my name is so and so and I will be presenting such and such" and instead to say "Hi, my name is this and this is that!", take a breath and go. Mine went something like "Hi my name is Mike Handelman and this is Iago and The Underpants *cue room wide laughter*" which in retrospect was the biggest laugh I got out of the whole thing. I got a bit of one on my second comic piece when I went for it at the end, then it was over, I was out. It felt very quick, I must have come in well under two minutes.

And then I walked out of the Calderwood, and took the train home, still chasing that next level of work and how to bring it into the audition room. I feel like working with said coach I got the pieces to a higher level then what I presented, I think I got into my head again after we spent that time getting me out of it. That's the next challenge, being in my body, where the moment lives.